The first poem I wrote while I was still searching for my lost son.  I call it LOST.

In youth
I saw no end to my life
I'd keep my children
when I was a wife

But life turns out
not always as planned
I've had no other children
no small boy at hand 

More than half my life
has gone by in a day
if I wait any longer
you'll never hear what I have to say

It's easy to look back,
to see what could have been
I know now relinquishment,
not pregnancy, was my only real sin

In searching
I fear what could be in store
Will you love or reject me?
I can't wait anymore 

I'm doing this for me
I hope for you too
I can't stop now
this is what I must do

Please know that I love you
you were always wanted my son
I have live to regret
this thing that's been done

I was told that my pain
would not linger or stay
but it grows and it festers
each day you're away

Empty arms long to hold you
to be part of your life
Have you made me a grandmother?
Have you found a loving wife?

I must seek, I must find
no matter the cost
even though
I will never get back what I lost

Please forgive me....

© written by Denise Marconi Leitch

while searching for my son who was lost to adotpion

Born December 23, 1969